As we all may know that a lot of neurological diseases of the brain that can contribute to developing psychological issues.

It started three weeks ago with my mother because she was acting strange as if something was wrong but we couldn’t understand what it could have been.

There weeks ago my mother had developed a stroke in her bedroom. Around 1:00 in the morning my mother started to exhibit some odd behaviors such as slurred speech, confusion, altered state of personality, weakness, hard to stand and walk.

My dad and I we thought maybe she would just messing around and just not taking anything like seriously like what was happening that night but as each passing moment went by we soon realized that this is not funny this is an emergency so we had to call 911.

That night was a bad night but not only for my parents but as well as myself only because during her stroke I started having seizures. I tried to tell them how I was feeling but those who exhibit seizures understand that it’s hard to talk and think correctly and it’s hard to function because your brain so altered from your neurons in your brain that everything that you know you can do comes to a point during a seizure that you just can’t do anymore during the time being. I told my parents that I was having a seizure and each passing moment that went by I also started to get worse. I got to the point where not only could I not talk but I couldn’t function correctly because I couldn’t walk straight without being wobbly as well as not being able to talk and understand what was happening. It’s hard having two family emergencies at the exact same time.

Once the paramedics arrived they obviously also realized that my mom was starting to have a stroke. I stayed home while my dad went to the hospital with my mom and it was one of the most terrifying nights I’ve ever had in my life because for those who have epilepsy or a seizure disorder you understand the pain and hardness that it is when you’re infected  daily with seizures because ot makes daily activities hard because the seizures just make your brain function come to a halt. I try so hard to talk and function and do what I want to do but unfortunately with seizures it’s not possible and if you are able to function a little bit it’s still pretty hard to do.

My mom got a CT scan of her head and the MRI. She also got a medication too try to reverse the effects of the stroke but the damage has already been done because with strokes it’s hard to tell sometimes because everybody that can have a stroke can be affected differently so it makes it 100% harder to realize and to control. I feel like I’m losing my mom with every passing day because of the dementia. I can’t have a normal conversation with her anymore without her saying shit that doesn’t exist or something that has never happened before.

This is taking a hard impact on our entire family especially my dog ( Baby), and our cat ( Abby). I hate watching them both be so depressed and scared. They haven’t seen my mom in a month because of the stroke. I find them both every so often crying and anxious about the fact that my mom won’t be coming back home any time soon.  My dog is so sad and stressed that she started to act out due to anxiety and I know that she’s just sad and hurting inside. The same with my cat except she’s not acting up like the same way that my dog is acting.  They know that mom is gone but they don’t understand why she’s not coming back home to see them. It hurts me inside just knowing that I can’t do anything to help them except love them and comfort them through this difficult time.

Knowing that won’t ever understand what’s happening and knowing that I can’t change what happened to my mom.  Wiping their eyes from when they won’t stop crying and pacing back and forth.My dog is so distraught from everything that she will constantly pace back and forth whining and looking out of the window just hoping that mom will eventually walk through the door but unfortunately she won’t be. The way that baby is acting out is by getting into everything either eating or tearing everything up for attention.  How do you tell an animal about what’s happening other than the fact that you just can’t.

A few different things that my mom has been saying due to the dementia which have been countless of different things.  One day she said that someone brought in a baby to her room to babysit and so the parents can do whatever they did but she said said she felt bad for the children because they were eating popcorn and somehow the popcorn got laced with some sort of drug which made them develop diarrhea. She said that one of her best friends who lives in Indiana was down here in Florida but the thing that made no sense was she said that her friend lived in Florida and was going to move to Indiana when she already lives in Indiana.  She said she had a party and had cake with onion rings.  She keeps saying that she wants to go to bed when she’s already in bed.  She  forgets where she’s at just about all day long. She said that she heard my brother and I arguing in the hallway at the rehab when we weren’t there .

Before the stroke she was already saying shit that never makes sense such as one night my dad and I were making dinner and she was in the bathroom and when I went to go check up on her to tell her that dinner was ready she would say that she thought that she was already in her reclining chair in the living room. Every day it’s something different and it’s hard seeing her decline and how theres nothing that can be done to reverse or  get rid of dementia. Dementia is a disease of the entire brain and right now there’s no cure or treatment’s that will help.

People who have dementia or even alzheimers disease will start losing their appetites, forget just about everything,  say things that don’t make any type of sense such as from either something that has happened back in her day or it’s like as if their in a dream that gets worse and never will get better.  When they say things that don’t make sense or exist and you try to correct them then they will end up getting mad and irritated at you because they swear up and down that they are right no matter what anyone else knows or thinks.  When someone develops dementia or alzheimers disease it’s best to just go with the flow and just understand that they don’t understand anything anymore.  Once someone gets diagnosed they normally don’t live long after the intial diagnosis and they will end up passing away soon from the disease that effects their entire brain.